It isn’t easy to write about this. I have made looooots of sins during my life but two of them were particularly bad. I blatantly lied to two persons which I really loved. I didn’t want hurt them because of my stupidity still, it was a cheap shot to both of them.
When I was creating my bucket list, I put item #64 like item which will be there unaccomplished for rest of my life. I was firmly resolved to take my dirty secret into my grave.
It was solid decision until Saturday, one week ago. During one really unpleasant gathering with my good friend and roommate, I broke my silence. I must say that my friend/roommate has no blame. It was unpleasant because accompany which I took with me. I had to remove another knife from my back because bad decision which I have made.
It was deliberation moment. For very long time, I wasn’t able to think that clearly like during that Saturday. I have realized that I systematically do same mistakes again, again and again. I have realized that I must change something so I have changed something. I have changed my attitude to certain things and people.
In the middle of night, I took the phone and made the confession.
Sorry MK and HS. I hope, you will forgive me someday.